It's Really Real...

"The best parts of you are probably the parts you are scared to share with the world.”

I don’t know if I made this up or heard this somewhere, but it’s the quote that I decided to put on my website. YES, MY WEBSITE! If you’re reading this, you’ve found your way to sipsometee.com & y’all I can not believe that this is real. 

To some this may seem like a small feat, but to me it’s so major because for as long as I can remember, I’ve always believed in the dreams of others & never my own. When I started writing it was never for anything besides my own personal therapy. Through writing, I’ve found my purpose & it feels so good to finally be walking in something that I feel that God has called me to do. 

Going back to the quote, I have always been afraid to share my truths, to share me, to be my authentic self for so many reasons that seem so dumb & insignificant now. To an extent there are still somethings that I do not share with the world, but for the most part I am presenting my authentic self & its liberating. It’s freedom. It’s happiness. 

On Friday when my site went live I realized the lack of support I got from those closest to me. I realized I would rather share my victories with strangers rather than the ones I hold close. It hurt. Then it didn’t. I did not need any of them to get here & I damn sure won’t need them to get to where God has planned for me to go. It is really a hard pill to swallow when a stranger will support you & go harder for you than someone you know & love. 

I realized in my celebration this week that I am not doing this for anyone besides myself. I realized that I had/have a story to tell & those who need to be touched will be & I cannot dwell on the negative too long. I have to & will enjoy this moment. 

For so long I believed that I had nothing to offer the world… for so long I thought that I didn’t deserve anything good that came because who the hell was I?… for so long I believed that a dream outside of a 9-5 wasn’t in the cards for me. I honestly am still battling with being of worthy of any of the awesome things that are taking place in my life.

Staying encouraged has been the hardest for me recently. I am literally waiting to be snatched from the dream. I am constantly trying to convince myself that what I’m doing means something, that what I share will touch at least one person. 

In my writing is where anyone can come to find the best version of Teedra. There is always going  to be truth here, there is always going to be love here, & there is always going to be more to add to a story that I’m writing for myself daily. Sharing me with you has been not only a gift for those who keep up with my post, but also a gift to myself that continues to give. 

This month Sip Some Tee With Me will be 1. One year on this rollercoaster of emotions. One year of raw truths & facing fears. One year of growth. One year of living a purpose filled life. 

ONE DAMN YEAR. 

Here’s to so many more 

Let Go & Let Love.

-Tee