There comes a point in all of our lives when we legit have an “AH-HA” moment. That moment for me came when I looked in the mirror & didn’t know who the hell was looking back at me. It took years to realize that I had lost myself in a person that wasn’t even close to being God, hell he wasn’t even close to being anything ... honestly, truly. To fall in love with a person’s potential is by far the WORST thing that anyone can do & I did just that. I can’t blame anyone besides myself. I wanted so badly to love & be loved, that I fell for the first person that showed interest & who I thought was different than anyone I have ever encountered in my 20.5 years of life.
Coming off my first relationship at 19 & losing my virginity, I was doing okay… I thought. I had expressed my feelings to a few choice friends, getting the input that what I was going through was common for someone at my age. Their advice, in 2009, was the equivalent to what we now say as “LIVE YOUR BEST LIFE, SIS.” & I had planned to do just that.
It all started with a church trip one summer. I was a summer camp counselor, for the church that I grew up in, & was asked to accompany, as a chaperone, some of the kids from the camp that would be traveling to Augusta for an annual celebration the church held. I was hesitant, but my love for the kids won & I went home, packed a bag, & was on my way.
This trip turned out to be one that legit changed my life… I don’t know if it was for the best or worst just yet. I guess we shall unpack that as the blog progresses.
Augusta would be where I met *him* let’s call him… Kyle. Kyle was a chocolate 5’9 piece of work that I fell in love with from the first time I laid eyes on him. He smiled & everything seemed to stop in that moment & I KNEW I had to have him… So got him I did…
Y’all know the saying everything that looks good ain’t good? Well this was definitely that. Our meeting would spark a whirlwind of emotion, heartache, heartbreak, tears, laughs, & most importantly the life lessons I plan to share here with whoever is taking the time to read this…
This is my journey to healing.
Buckle up & lets take a ride…